Bla

Do you ever wonder what goes on inside peoples heads? Why they are such arrogant assholes, what makes them talk the stupid shit that flows out of their mouths, what makes them believe that we are fools and will believe what they say? Some people suck. I hate liars.

What a day its been here already. I think that we are meant to go through a thousand challenges this season to see how we cope and prepare us for the rocky future. The same financial year that we start our own company in a 'secure' industry, the worlds economy starts to crumble and our 'secure' industry announces that they cant pay as much and the prices go down.
To be honest with you, I dont care about the money. We owe so much money that its quite unbelievable, but I just dont care. I dont think that its anything that we cant get out of.

This morning, we woke at 5.30 to a worker at the door ringing the bell. A bridge broke and cows fell through it, one was stuck. We were so lucky that she didnt die, or more.. more could have fallen on her and down the holes.
My husband (the hero), waded through the incredibly cold creek of steadily moving water, and pulled this cow down, where she fell and walked out. She was one lucky cow. The other one managed to get out herself.

My dogs are barking. They bark a lot. They're very protective - maybe too much, BUT when the owner of the farm rides past on his quad at night with his lights off, holding a fencing standard in the air ready to smack them - then I can understand why they show aggression when he is anywhere near us or moving around the farm. He thinks it does them good, he thinks that you have to show them who is in charge, he thinks that they will respect him for it - yeah right - you just wait until you DONT have that standard in your hand and we'll see who has the most respect.

My husband and I were talking to a local the other day and he said something that really stuck in my mind 'its not the rough ones you need to worry about'. He is SO right. All my life, I've been cautious of the rough looking people, the ones who are normally in trouble etc .. but I can see what he means. The ones who have the power, the mind capability, the financial backing.. they're the ones to have in the back in the back of your mind.

My mother in law is coming over in a couple of months and is to be staying for a whole month. I think its fantastic - sure, it will get frustrating having someone here for that length of time, but I think its going to be great. I'm really excited about it. She has told my husband and I to book our own time away so she will look after all of my girls - she is the first person, ever, to have offered that. People generally cant handle my children. I dont know if its mine, or if its because there are 4. I love my girls, and wouldnt change them for anything, but it would be SO nice if I could have time with my husband without children. We have never 'dated', we have had very little time without children, never a night away, never a full day.

Time is one of those things that you just cant get back.