Well today is quite sad

We've had a few really good days. So many challenges - oh so many!! More challenges than most people get in their first year doing what we're doing.
Anyway **sighs**, the truck is outside. The cows are being loaded. Away they'll be going in about 5 short minutes.

These beautiful, plump, well fed, round bellied, quiet, loved heifers that came to us in a state that the SPCA would be grumpy with; as skinny as hell with evidence of lice and severe malnourishment, are leaving today to go to the farm that they were originally going to be milked on.

We were basically doing the owner a favour by calving and milking them while he got his milking shed ready.

I'm gutted.

I knew this day was coming - we all did. We were prepared, the paper work is done, the records are right, but now that the day has come.. it is very disheartening.
We've put so much money, time, feed and love into these girls, bringing them up not just to a 'good state', but we have a reputation of having the best stock in the area - these girls are a part of that. The owner is getting prime stock while we miss them.
We couldnt milk them as much as we wanted to due to their original condition.

I hope that whoever milks them as of tomorrow, respects them, and cares for them. I hope that they deserve the best stock.



On another sad note, tomorrow is the birthday of my old classmate who committed suicide 7 years ago. I can never think about her without asking why. Such a beautiful, bright, talented girl.

Why.

It would be her 25th. Its crazy. I forget just about everything .. my own birthday doesnt matter, but I've never forgotten hers.

**looks out the window** there goes the truck.