There is one particular tv programme that annoys me so much at the moment, and yet I cant help but watch it. A shot at love with Tila Tequila - well the 2nd one.
First of all, I never knew that she existed before the first show came out.. and when I saw it, I wondered what the big deal was. I proceeded to watch each episode, basically to see how desparate some people can be, and what stupid stuff they will do on international television. Do they not realise that the world will see them? See them eating the utter shit they are forced to consume, the vomitting, the crying - oh my goodness.. the crying!! People dont look good when they cry, and when you're doing it over some woman that is picking between you and people from the opposite sex - then you are going to look like a complete and utter disaster.
There is a question in itself.. why on earth would you want to be with someone who has no idea what they want in a partner - gender wise?
Why would anyone enter this competition? Do they truly want to win her heart, or are they all after her money, fame, and to get into the sack with her??
Dont get me wrong though .. there were people on the show that I liked. I really did like Bobby and Danni. I'm glad that neither of them got to be with Tila as they are clearly worth more than her.
I think that the world fell in love with these 2 people. I hope that they're okay after their experience.
I've read (after googling), that she picked the new winner of the 2nd series who rejected her. Well there are responses to that - ha friggen ha! and 'oh shit .. does this mean there will be a 3rd series??'. Does she TRULY believe that she is going to find a person in this way? By having a bunch of people, find a bunch of people, make them do unheard of things, while she snogs the entire room?? Ugh.
I read that Tila was wondering why the winner had entered the show if she didnt know what she wanted - what the hell?? Can Tila really ask that sort of question?? Please, please, dont make a third series. Tila .. go to a club, go to a bar, join a dating website - I dont care.. just stay off the tv !!!
My theme song for the past couple of days has been Eminem, 'they call me superman'. For a young(ish) woman, I'm pretty damn strong (physically)
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Friday, August 22, 2008
What is your theme song?
Every day, I have a theme song. It varies on what the day brings, and what happens. I can have different theme songs during the day depending on how it all goes.
I have mainly 2 that come into my days. The 1st one, the best one, usually comes into play when the day is sunny - regardless of how things are going. That song is by U2 'its a beautiful day'.. thats all I hear. I love that song, and its so relevant. It puts you in a 'pumpy' mood and gives a certain amount of energy, making the day go better and encouraging the goodness coming from the sun.
The 2nd theme song that I have playing, is 'theres got to be more.. (to life)' .. by some chick. I really like that song also, but when it has meaning and is relevant to my day to day living, then I dont particularly love it.
Do you ever wonder what else you could have done in your life? Do you wonder if the 'butterfly effect' has had much effect on YOUR life? There are a million ways that life can go, with very simple occasions. Every day 'could' have gone different. What if you'd turned left, instead of right? What if you had been delayed for 2 small minutes? What if you had said no to a particular promotion or job offer? What if you had not had sex on that particular day and not ended up pregnant? What if I had been unable to have children? Where would I be? What if I had developed the keen interest of seeing the world, before I had got pregnant.. who would I be with? Would I even be married? What if I hadnt have been in that particular chatroom, would I still have met my partner in some other way?
People tend not to think of these questions.. nor the answers that go along after them. Their reasoning is 'there is a purpose for everything' and 'there is no use thinking about things that will never come about' .. yes, I agree. I dont think there is a purpose for everything. I used to, but I have too many unanswerable questions. I do however, think people are brought together in particular ways to build relationships - be it friendships, or more.
They say 'life isnt a dress rehearsal'.. but there are far too many things that I want to do in this life!
I have mainly 2 that come into my days. The 1st one, the best one, usually comes into play when the day is sunny - regardless of how things are going. That song is by U2 'its a beautiful day'.. thats all I hear. I love that song, and its so relevant. It puts you in a 'pumpy' mood and gives a certain amount of energy, making the day go better and encouraging the goodness coming from the sun.
The 2nd theme song that I have playing, is 'theres got to be more.. (to life)' .. by some chick. I really like that song also, but when it has meaning and is relevant to my day to day living, then I dont particularly love it.
Do you ever wonder what else you could have done in your life? Do you wonder if the 'butterfly effect' has had much effect on YOUR life? There are a million ways that life can go, with very simple occasions. Every day 'could' have gone different. What if you'd turned left, instead of right? What if you had been delayed for 2 small minutes? What if you had said no to a particular promotion or job offer? What if you had not had sex on that particular day and not ended up pregnant? What if I had been unable to have children? Where would I be? What if I had developed the keen interest of seeing the world, before I had got pregnant.. who would I be with? Would I even be married? What if I hadnt have been in that particular chatroom, would I still have met my partner in some other way?
People tend not to think of these questions.. nor the answers that go along after them. Their reasoning is 'there is a purpose for everything' and 'there is no use thinking about things that will never come about' .. yes, I agree. I dont think there is a purpose for everything. I used to, but I have too many unanswerable questions. I do however, think people are brought together in particular ways to build relationships - be it friendships, or more.
They say 'life isnt a dress rehearsal'.. but there are far too many things that I want to do in this life!
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
When you are going through hell .. just keep on going.
If that is so logical.. then why did I flop and fail?
This is hard.
This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. The stress is unbelievable. I'm just about ready to walk away.. WITH all of the debt that we've got into to get this far.
We hired 3 staff members, well 4 actually. One quit - which I am happy about, but we're still a staff member down, one is a dipshit and a fucken drama queen who goes on and on and on about quitting.. its all joking but sometimes I wish he WOULD. Hes away sick at the moment and so is his wife who normally helps me with calves. Thismorning was the weakest point that I've had.
You see, in other posts, I've talked about the bobby truck.. that was due thismorning, and I'm aware they can come anytime after 8.30 .. at 9 they turned up. I had booked 28 on.
What normally happens is the workers wife and I feed the bobbies, make sure they all get a really good feed, and then my partner and our 2 remaining staff move them to a pen which is on a large piece of concrete about a metre off the ground so the truck is the right height for them to be put on. Well thismorning, I had no one to help me feed them, no one to help me move them, no one to open the gates.. I had to do it all myself. Do you know how heavy a full, wriggly 25kg calf is? If you dont, then you're a dumbass because I just told you. I actually think they're more than that, and they dont come with handles. They move, and they're awkward. Half way through feeding them, I started putting the full ones into this pen, I got to 6 and heard the truck coming up the driveway.. that was it.
That was my point.
That was the point of the morning that I broke down and cried. It is so embaressing sobbing uncontrolably in front of 2 truck drivers. I found another in the pen that was ready - there are more.. but I gave up. I went out to make sure they'd feed thismorning, at 11pm last night, and came in just before midnight.. I knew last night that thismorning was going to be an easy feeding.. but it wasnt.
The worst part about all of this for me, is that I asked for help.. I asked my husband to help me with them. Before I even started the calves he had started on the ones that we are keeping.. why?? We can do those at ANY time.. the bobbies, we cant.
He is absolutely shattered. Hes been pushed to his ultimate limit this week.. there is nothing that we can do to solve this problem because its mainly due to the snow thats on the ground.. it increases the feeding out which is so time consuming and they are limited to which paddocks they use etc. They came in last night at 10 to 10.
I feel like we've been slapped in the face with these circumstances.. its not fair. My kids are suffering.. we all are.
We're going through hell. I dont know how to get out.
This is hard.
This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. The stress is unbelievable. I'm just about ready to walk away.. WITH all of the debt that we've got into to get this far.
We hired 3 staff members, well 4 actually. One quit - which I am happy about, but we're still a staff member down, one is a dipshit and a fucken drama queen who goes on and on and on about quitting.. its all joking but sometimes I wish he WOULD. Hes away sick at the moment and so is his wife who normally helps me with calves. Thismorning was the weakest point that I've had.
You see, in other posts, I've talked about the bobby truck.. that was due thismorning, and I'm aware they can come anytime after 8.30 .. at 9 they turned up. I had booked 28 on.
What normally happens is the workers wife and I feed the bobbies, make sure they all get a really good feed, and then my partner and our 2 remaining staff move them to a pen which is on a large piece of concrete about a metre off the ground so the truck is the right height for them to be put on. Well thismorning, I had no one to help me feed them, no one to help me move them, no one to open the gates.. I had to do it all myself. Do you know how heavy a full, wriggly 25kg calf is? If you dont, then you're a dumbass because I just told you. I actually think they're more than that, and they dont come with handles. They move, and they're awkward. Half way through feeding them, I started putting the full ones into this pen, I got to 6 and heard the truck coming up the driveway.. that was it.
That was my point.
That was the point of the morning that I broke down and cried. It is so embaressing sobbing uncontrolably in front of 2 truck drivers. I found another in the pen that was ready - there are more.. but I gave up. I went out to make sure they'd feed thismorning, at 11pm last night, and came in just before midnight.. I knew last night that thismorning was going to be an easy feeding.. but it wasnt.
The worst part about all of this for me, is that I asked for help.. I asked my husband to help me with them. Before I even started the calves he had started on the ones that we are keeping.. why?? We can do those at ANY time.. the bobbies, we cant.
He is absolutely shattered. Hes been pushed to his ultimate limit this week.. there is nothing that we can do to solve this problem because its mainly due to the snow thats on the ground.. it increases the feeding out which is so time consuming and they are limited to which paddocks they use etc. They came in last night at 10 to 10.
I feel like we've been slapped in the face with these circumstances.. its not fair. My kids are suffering.. we all are.
We're going through hell. I dont know how to get out.
Monday, August 18, 2008
Alrighty - something positive
I dont know what to write that is positive yet.. but I'm sure as I begin to type, that something will just fall into this empty space.
The latest events.. well a worker quit thismorning which I feel really bad about! She was nearly in tears and I feel awful for her.. but the fact is, she didnt turn up to work for 4 days straight during the hardest 4 days of our working careers and basically was taking the piss out of us as employers. It was hard.
I lost a calf thismorning, number 9. She got scours and we were treating her.. she was a gorgeous wee jersey calf.. she got her head stuck in some bars and died overnight. That sucks.
Oh, I know something positive. I am over the entire 'bobby truck' problem. I actually look forward to the bobby truck coming! The bulls are VERY feisty, and very large. I am happy when that job is over and done with for the day!!
My sister got engaged thismorning. I'm so happy for her. Its been a while! I've been married for 6 years and she has been with her partner longer than I've been with mine. I told my husband and he smiled and said it was about time. Knowing her, she'll have a small reception at the courthouse.. I think that she should do something nice.. not huge, but nice and make it a nice day to remember. You only get to do it once.
I've recently found out that my newest friend (lol) that I email is rather hot, and for some reason it makes me nervous when I get emails from him now.
Over the past week or so, we've had it all.. the sun, the rain, the snow.. we got snowed in and the roads were shut. It was my daughters birthday and we were short staffed so we all had to work. It was the worst birthday ever. She turned 7. She got all that she wanted for her birthday but it doesnt make it any easier that I know it sucked. My partner made her a cake at 1am and the power went out so he couldnt finish it. We tried.. and failed. We had no power for 3 days. We survived and in all honesty, I could've gone longer. But we did have the means for it. We had a generator at the milking shed so we could still milk, and we have a coal range which is also a wet back. Today though, its a beautiful sunny day. If the snow wasnt still covering everything, I'd be letting my calves out for a run around. I'm having the bulk of the day off - after what I've done this week, I think I deserve a couple of hours to myself.
My baby is walking around the furniture now. Kids grow so fast.
The latest events.. well a worker quit thismorning which I feel really bad about! She was nearly in tears and I feel awful for her.. but the fact is, she didnt turn up to work for 4 days straight during the hardest 4 days of our working careers and basically was taking the piss out of us as employers. It was hard.
I lost a calf thismorning, number 9. She got scours and we were treating her.. she was a gorgeous wee jersey calf.. she got her head stuck in some bars and died overnight. That sucks.
Oh, I know something positive. I am over the entire 'bobby truck' problem. I actually look forward to the bobby truck coming! The bulls are VERY feisty, and very large. I am happy when that job is over and done with for the day!!
My sister got engaged thismorning. I'm so happy for her. Its been a while! I've been married for 6 years and she has been with her partner longer than I've been with mine. I told my husband and he smiled and said it was about time. Knowing her, she'll have a small reception at the courthouse.. I think that she should do something nice.. not huge, but nice and make it a nice day to remember. You only get to do it once.
I've recently found out that my newest friend (lol) that I email is rather hot, and for some reason it makes me nervous when I get emails from him now.
Over the past week or so, we've had it all.. the sun, the rain, the snow.. we got snowed in and the roads were shut. It was my daughters birthday and we were short staffed so we all had to work. It was the worst birthday ever. She turned 7. She got all that she wanted for her birthday but it doesnt make it any easier that I know it sucked. My partner made her a cake at 1am and the power went out so he couldnt finish it. We tried.. and failed. We had no power for 3 days. We survived and in all honesty, I could've gone longer. But we did have the means for it. We had a generator at the milking shed so we could still milk, and we have a coal range which is also a wet back. Today though, its a beautiful sunny day. If the snow wasnt still covering everything, I'd be letting my calves out for a run around. I'm having the bulk of the day off - after what I've done this week, I think I deserve a couple of hours to myself.
My baby is walking around the furniture now. Kids grow so fast.
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